It Hurts When Everything Except Your Feelings Change The 5 Badass Rebel Angels Of The Zodiac

When you fall in love for real, you hope that this love will last for a lifetime. You hope that your relationship with this man will last forever and that nothing and nobody could split the two of you up.

But sadly, things don’t always turn out the way you wanted them to. Sadly, sometimes everything doesn’t go the way you planned.

Sometimes, everything changes in the blink of an eye. Everything except your feelings.

I know because this is exactly what I’ve been through and what I am still going through. And trust my word on it—it is one of the most painful things you can experience.

I was in a relationship which I could have sworn would last forever.

This guy and I had plans for our future and I could have sworn that nothing could stand in our way. That nothing could ruin our happiness.

But I guess I was wrong. Because before I knew it, my life tore down into pieces and I was crushed.

Before I knew it, the love of my life stopped loving me and my world collapsed overnight.

And all of a sudden, everything changed. My life changed its course and I didn’t know how to handle it.

All of a sudden, I didn’t have the person I loved by my side. I didn’t have my life partner or someone I saw myself growing old with.

All of a sudden, I didn’t have the person I could always turn to, the person who I thought would always have my back.

I didn’t only lose my boyfriend, I lost my best friend and a family member. I lost someone who I thought was my biggest support and someone who I thought would be my life partner.

And together with him, I lost all of his friends and family. Don’t get me wrong—none of these people cut me off but they simply couldn’t be a part of my life the way they had been.

Together with him, I lost everything that could have been of us.

I lost the house we hoped of building together, I lost the dog we planned on getting and I lost the children we dreamed of having together.

All of a sudden, each one of my dreams and hopes were shattered and broken into pieces. I’d lost my happily ever after.

And most importantly—I lost myself in the process.

Because with time, I forgot who I was without this man by my side. I forgot about my flaws and qualities.

I stopped being a woman, a daughter, a friend or a career woman. I’d only become this guy’s girlfriend and this love I felt for him was the only thing that defined me.

And at the same time, it caged me.

Because although all of my life practically disappeared right in front of my eyes, I stayed stuck in one place. I still loved this man and I still wanted all of our plans to come true.

I still wanted to spend the rest of my life with this man, although I knew that something like this would never happen. I still wanted to grow old with him and I still waited for him to come back to me.

And all of this has brought me a lot of pain.

It made me feel pathetic and miserable. It made me feel like I was good for nothing and as if my life had lost all of its meaning without this man by my side.

I kept wondering how come I couldn’t move on.

After all, with time, everyone forgot about the two of us, including him. And not only that—he moved on with his life and left me in the past, the moment he walked away from me.

But somehow, I couldn’t force myself to do the same, as much as I tried. Somehow, I couldn’t get over this guy and everything the two of us shared.

And I couldn’t move on.

Instead, I felt like I was stuck in the same place he left me, without any hope of healing my broken heart.

And to be honest, I am still caged by this feeling.

And I still have no idea what to do to continue living my life and to accept that my emotions also have to change if I want to save myself.