You are probably in some bar right now, checking out your next target and thinking about the ways to manipulate her. Or you are on a fancy dinner date with some girl you are trying to impress with your sense of humor. Or you are sleeping peacefully next to some random girl you picked up last night, whose name you don’t even remember.
You’re confident and full of yourself. You are having the time of your life and everything is going as planned.
You can even say that you are happy. After all, there is nothing and nobody bothering you and you don’t think much about what tomorrow will bring you.
But this won’t last for long because soon, you’ll start hearing a tiny, quiet voice in the back of your head. A voice telling you that you’ve blown it. Telling you that you’ve ruined your only true chance of happiness.
A voice telling you that you’ve let go of the best thing that ever happened to you. A voice telling you that you’ve lost a lot. At first, you’ll manage to shut it out but with time, the voice will become louder and louder.
Soon, you’ll wake up in the middle of the night and you’ll realize that you dreamed of her—of the only girl who loved you for real. You’ll see her clear image in front of your eyes and everything you did to her will start to haunt you.
And then, for a moment, you’ll admit to yourself that you still miss her. You’ll admit that you miss the way she loved you and the way she took care of you.
You’ll look the truth in the eye and you’ll see that you miss having someone who thinks that you are worthy and someone who believes in you. You’ll see that you miss someone loving you unconditionally and without asking for anything in return.
All of a sudden, you’ll see that you’ve spent all these years missing everything about her.
You’ll admit to yourself that you still think of her and that you regret chasing her away more than anything. You’ll be consumed by guilt and there will be nothing you can do to shake it off. And just like that, for the first time ever, you’ll really see what you’ve lost.
When that happens, you will be ready to do whatever it takes just to go back in time and make things right. You’ll want just one more chance with her. But you won’t get it.
When that happens, you’ll start begging and chasing her, the same way she chased you. You’ll start looking for her and you’ll see that she is nowhere to be found.
When you start thinking about her, she’ll have forgotten all about you. Her soul will have healed completely and she’ll have picked up the broken pieces of her shattered heart.
When you realize what you’ve lost, it will be too late because she’ll be long gone and you’ll be completely forgotten.
You know, this girl saw her own worth before you did. She saw that she was always enough and that you never deserved her.
She saw that she was strong enough to make it without you and she got over you, even though you were convinced that she never would. She took off her rose-tinted glasses and she finally saw the real you. And just like that, she left you in the past and she moved on with her life.
So, when you finally realize everything and when you understand the mistake you made, don’t get your hopes up because this girl will be happy, far away from you.
And once you start searching for her in all those other women, she’ll have someone worthy of being by her side. She’ll have someone who never takes her for granted and who saw how special she is from the moment she walked into his life. Someone who will never let her go.
Once you realize what you’ve lost, she’ll have someone who will treat her the way she deserves and the way you never did. She’ll finally have the love she never got from you and for her, you’ll be nothing more than a distant memory and a tough lesson.
