If you can’t love me, I’ll make you miss me
If you can’t love me, I’ll make you miss me. “One day you’ll look for me in everyone, but you won’t find me.” I don’t know when that day will come. Maybe I’ll be holding someone’s hand, lost in their attention. And I won’t even notice how you pass by.
Until you say my name. And I’ll think of you, of what we had, but mostly of what we didn’t have. Because you never loved me back. You gave me crumbs of love, leaving me guessing. I just loved someone who didn’t love me.
But one day you will remember me and realize how much you miss me.
You’ll miss those conversations where we only talked about you. You’ll miss those texts you ignored. You’ll replay old voicemails just to hear my voice.
You will look at old photos, remembering the time when you were the main thing in my life. You will remember how I told you everything, down to the smallest detail. And you will miss that no one tells you anything like that anymore.
You’ll miss someone who truly cared about you. So much so that I forgot to think about myself. You’ll miss someone who was always there for you, even though you took it for granted. And when you start missing me, you’ll wish you’d realized what you had when I was there. That you didn’t give me the chance I deserved.If you can’t love me, I’ll make you miss me. Missing someone when they’re not there is the worst. Haunting you with “what ifs” when you’re alone in bed, or worse, lying next to someone who makes you feel lonely—someone who treats you the way you treated me.
And maybe you’ll just write to me and ask how I’m doing. Maybe you’re just wondering if I still have feelings. And maybe I do. The difference between us was that I said what I felt, and you doubted everything. You felt something, too, but you doubted whether it was all right.
But I couldn’t wait for you to decide. I couldn’t keep hoping and wishing and striving for something I wasn’t going to get. Even the best of people get tired of trying.
Yes, it hurt at first, but I moved on. But I am the one people miss, even if they only realize it after a while. I am the one they never completely forget.
One day you’ll get a message, and you’ll hope it’s from me. One day you’ll hear a song you used to like, but now it reminds you of me.
And you’ll switch it. One day, I swear, you’ll miss me, and when that day comes, I’ll be far away. If you can’t love me, I’ll make you miss me!
If you can’t love me, I’ll make you miss me
