Last letter to the man who broke me.
How are you doing? I hope you’re doing well, and yes, I mean it. Thank you for leaving me…
Last letter to the man who broke me.
How are you doing? I hope you’re doing well, and yes, I mean it. This is not stupidity; there is no sarcastic remark that you could feel because of how hard we parted.
No, I don’t envy you anything, not at all. I am very happy with the direction our lives have taken. And yes, I don’t wish at all that we never met, or that you never came into my life. Because, oddly enough, you did more good than harm.
You influenced my life a little more than the people I grew up with. And although it was difficult to understand at the moment, it is true. I am grateful for all the valuable lessons I learned in my relationship with you. And they were better than any book I’ve read (although there were quite a few of them). So, I sincerely thank you and wish you all the best.
I’m very glad that you did this to me. This is a cruel joke you played on me. We broke up and then I came back the next day. You smile in my face because you want to see my reaction when I realize that you are no longer around. Well, it wasn’t funny to me. Making fun of someone’s dependence on you is not funny at all. But you do just that, it seems funny to you.
Now I realized how wrong it was to invest so much in this relationship. After all, I was not an emotionally mature enough person to understand what I meant to you.
I remember very well how I cried in front of my friend. You were a friend and a lover to me. And now I can only imagine what kind of sadist would do such a thing to show what power he has in a relationship. You taught me that I would never allow myself to do this to another person. Because I was once on the verge of such behavior.
You also taught me not to fall in love with a person whose own ego is more important than the tears of his partner. It really shouldn’t have surprised me as much as it did. Because you’ve been playing with me since day one.
I remember how I suffered because you only sent me funny hints. It was a game for you.
For a long time, I didn’t even know whether I liked you or not. Although I could love you, I know that you would never love me. You only loved yourself. So you played with my feelings until you were sure of yours. You see, I wasn’t good enough to be with you forever, but I was good enough for you to take advantage of and not want to let go? And you thought that this was normal.
I realized that no matter how much someone likes me, I won’t hang on to every controversial word they say. Now that I have realized the importance of clarity in a relationship, I will never allow another narcissist to play with my emotions like that. I won’t let anyone second-guess whether I’m worthy of their love. After all, I deserve the best!
Thank you for showing them pictures and making fun of how popular and in demand you are with women. You instilled in me a sense of self-doubt. And it’s good that you did it. Once I understood my shortcomings, I was able to face them and overcome them.
Oh, and one more quick tip, stop pitting girls against each other. I realized that all those girls were not my rivals. They just had the misfortune of knowing you. Women shouldn’t have to go through life with guys like you who think we have to fight each other for your attention. No thanks.
Thank you for keeping me on my toes. With you, I was constantly worried about what I should or shouldn’t do, and how you would react to everything. I didn’t realize how much pressure I was under until it all stopped.
Suddenly I could breathe again. It was then that I realized the importance of stability. No one should feel like they are trapped in their own life. I have never valued the feeling of freedom and control over my life, and perhaps that is why I so willingly handed over the reins of government to you. But you made sure I learned my lesson. I will never do this again because now I know the price I paid.
Thank you for doubting my dreams and teasing me that I was too ambitious.
You said that I build castles in the air. I wanted too much. Well, I agree that we belonged to the same small town and therefore our options were limited. But unlike you, I didn’t let it define me. Instead, I took it as a challenge. And although it would mean a lot to me if you supported me, you didn’t. And I came to terms with it. I have become stronger. Instead of looking for confirmation of my rightness and worth from others, I look for it within myself. And I think that I will never be disappointed.
Every time you were jealous and possessive of me, I thought of it as something good. Like you were finally ready to love me. But this was not the case. You just wanted to control my life, wanted everything I had to offer. My mind, body, and soul, and in return, you couldn’t even give me your commitment. I learned that I, like a complete fool, spent so much time and emotions on you when you were not ready to invest them.
Thank you for every time you left me alone. It taught me that the only person I need in my life to be happy is me.
Thank you for making me realize how cruel, irrational, and selfish the world can be. Now I am more willing to deal with people like you without hating them because I also understand what they are going through. And most importantly, thank you for leaving me.
I know that when you did this, I felt broken and abandoned, but it was the only truly good thing you did for me. When you left, I thought that I couldn’t live without you. But how damned I was wrong then. I not only live without you, but I thrive. I shudder to think how my life would have turned out if we were still together. I’m a stronger person now, but that’s not entirely because of you. It’s always been in me, but yes, I thank you for showing me that. You showed me what I’m capable of, and I deserve more. Goodbye.
