She could have stayed forever. She wanted to. She wanted to love you for the rest of her life. But you know what you did? You let her go. You let her walk away from your life, and now, you’re sorry.
You broke that one hell of a big heart of hers. You took it, and you shredded it to pieces. And she’s not sorry you did that because she knows if you want to fully love, you have to be prepared to get your heart broken.
If you want to love with all your heart, you have to open up and tear down your walls. You have to be vulnerable, and you have to trust the person you love.
She did all of that, and it backfired. She had trust in love, but the love bit her back.
This horrible feeling is exactly what happened to her when you let her go—right then, that second, when she was standing at the front door with tears in her eyes looking at you and hoping you’ll do something to keep her in your life.
You did nothing. You were too much of a coward to do anything to stop her from leaving.
Now you miss her.
And you have absolutely no right to. You could have turned what you had into something that lasts forever. You had that pure and beautiful love. It was right in front of you, but you didn’t appreciate it. And that’s why you didn’t deserve it either.
So, don’t miss her because you’re not worthy of missing her.
Now that she’s gone, you’ve realized what you had and chased away. It’s only now that you don’t have her anymore that you see how lucky you were when she was in your life.
Now you see what your life is like without her, and now you realize how much joy and happiness she brought you with her smile every day.
Another man would kill to be her boyfriend. Another man would give everything just to have her, and you threw her away so easily.
No, you don’t have the right to miss her.
Now that she’s gone, you’ve realized that while you were together, she brought out the best in you. You were a better person thanks to her. And admit it, you loved it. You were happy and satisfied, and you didn’t know why.
But now that you’ve lost her, you’ve realized she is the reason why, and you have made the biggest mistake of your life.
She was loving and loyal. She cared for you, and she put you first because she loved you. She knew that you were kind of messed up, so she let so many things slide. She forgave you so many times that you didn’t even know she was angry.
She kept those things to herself because she wanted to give you a chance to find yourself. She wanted to help you turn into a good and loving person.
You didn’t know how to appreciate that. You didn’t know how to respect everything she did for you, and you’ve lost it. Do you see how terrible your life is without her in it?
Do you see what you could have had if you had only kept your eyes open, if you had only not taken her for granted?
You saw how real everything was getting, and you got cold feet. You got scared of life, scared of commitment. You refused to grow up, and you stayed the same. Now, you’re sorry, and now you want it all back.
Guess what? You don’t deserve it!
You should have thought about that when she was closed up in her room choking in tears and asking why. You should have thought of her when her heart screamed your name but all in vain.
You should have never let her hurt that way. You should have never let yourself be the reason of her pain.
She’s crossed you out of her life, and she’ll never go back to you. You had your chance and you blew it.
You regret it now, and you’re sorry that you let her go. But, know this—that won’t bring her back. Nothing will bring her back.
She has hurt, she has healed and she has moved on.
You, you will stay stuck in the moment when you realized letting her go was the biggest mistake you made in your life.