If someone would have told me that I will think this way 5 years ago, I would have called them crazy. But things change. And I don’t want the same things anymore. My priorities got changed and I feel damn good about it.
Finding a lover sounds great, I know. It is a person you go on dates with, you dance with in the rain, and you hold his hand when you are being sick.
But finding that person is scary. In this perfect world, we all pretend to be like that. Simply perfect. Perfect life, with perfect holidays. Perfect kids with perfect grades at school. Perfect couples who smile and hug each other in every photo on Facebook or Instagram.
But you know what? It is only a mask! Life is all that happens while we are making plans for it. And our plans don’t get along with God’s. That’s the way that cookie crumbles!
That’s why I don’t want something perfect!
That’s why I don’t need a lover, I need a best friend. Who will accept me with all my flaws. Who I can be myself with. Totally free from all the masks of this world. I want someone I can pee in front of. I want someone I can shave my legs in front of. I want someone I can wear my PJ’s all day long in front of.
And I want him to be totally cool about that.
I want a best friend. Someone I can tease, or drink with, or laugh with in the middle of the night while the rest of the world is asleep.
I want him to compliment me when I am dressed to kill and be honest when I look shitty in that new dress. I want it all or nothing at all.
I want someone who will want me in his future like I am the most precious thing he has. I want us to make plans, to enjoy long talks and to be honest to each other. I want him to tell me his deepest secrets and to feel good aboit it. I want him to rely on me like I will rely on him.
And I want to fall head over heels for this best friend.
I think people miss the most important thing ever. You actually don’t need a lover. You just need a best friend.
I need someone who will be on the same level as me. I want him to understand my craziness and my sarcastic sense of humor.
I need him to get to know me deeply. To see all my scars but who refuses to let me go.
I want someone who will go the extra mile for me not asking for anything in return. I need a man who will be faithful to me and who will always show me his love. I need someone who will choose me every single day. And I don’t want anything less than that.
In the end, the truth is that everyone is going to hurt you—you just need to find the ones worth suffering for!
