Dear Husband,
I fell in love with someone else. Truth is, he makes me feel like no one ever has before. For once I feel like I have actually met my soulmate, that he is my person. When I look into his eyes, I feel like Iโm looking into his mind, heart and soul. And for once I feel like my feelings are being reciprocated and I feel whole. No, he doesnโt make me whole like you once did. Iโm finally my own person โ I donโt need someone to make me whole again and I finally found someone who compliments me.
He doesnโt question me, he doesnโt doubt me nor what we have, and he believes in me and in us. He challenges me and has opened my eyes to a world I never knew existed. Iโm more open-minded than I have ever been before. Iโm so sick of staying the same and being stuck in this same routine. I want to be pushed, I want to be heard, I wanted you to genuinely care like he does. He listens, he tells me when Iโm wrong becauseย he wants to make me a better person,ย he argues back with me because he caresโฆ.. and he doesnโt ignore me.
I wanted you to hold me like he does, I wanted you to protect me like he does. I so badly wanted you to be a passionate lover like he is. I wish you would have opened up to me like he does. I thought I would have known you by now, after all these years.
But here is the truth: I know him more than Iโve ever known you. Finally, Iโve found myself, and more importantlyย I love myselfย more than I ever have before. This is because of him; he is the one who cared enough to make me strong and independent. He made me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to.
He tells me he is the luckiest man alive, he tells me how special I am to him every damn day. Did I tell you how he doesnโt ignore me? Well, he doesnโt. Even when he is at work, or out with his friends. Did I tell you how he wants to come home to me? But he canโt because Iโm still with you, even though youโre not actually here. Not even close.
Iโm not here to destroy you, Iโm here to tell you that we werenโt made for each other. I know you will find someone and be a great lover to her, the one you couldnโt be to me. Truth is, I so badly wish he was you but youโre not him and canโt ever be him, and that is why I canโt stay one day, minute or second longer.
