There is a man who will love me when I am unlovable. I know that he exists and he just waits for the right moment to come into my life. And when he comes, I will show him what real love feels like. I am not saying that life with me will be easy but I will try not to punish him for the things from my past. Maybe in the middle of some fight, I will break my promise but it won’t be on purpose. When a person is a little bit broken she always has 2 characters—one good and another bad. And the fight between them keeps going on. In her moments of sorrow and remembering all those nasty things that happened to her, she will be the bad one. But in her happy moments, she will be a woman to love.
So, if you ever come into my life, please be patient with me.
Because loving a broken girl is not as easy as it looks. It takes a lot of strength, courage and guts to do that and only a special man can do it. So, I think you are a special man for me and I love you for accepting me with all my flaws. I just want you to know that I will always try to be your best friend. I will always be the wall you can lean on and no matter what happens I will never let you down. I have been there and I know how it hurts when the love of your life takes you for granted and lets you down so many times. That’s why I will never do that to you. I will try to make your life better than it was before and I want you to find peace in a relationship with me.
I know that there will be days when I will piss you off or drive you crazy.
Maybe I will be clingy sometimes but trust me, I am doing all that because it is some sort of defense mechanism. I will do that because I was hurt once and I don’t want that to happen to me anymore. So, whatever you do, please don’t judge me because of my past. Don’t think that I am not worthy because of all those scars and cracks in my heart. Please, accept me like this because I need your love badly. I want to feel alive again and I can do that only with a man who will treat me like I deserve. I want you to love me in a way that will make me forget about my past. I just want it to be an old memory and I don’t want to think about it a lot. Instead, I want to live my life to the fullest with the man of my dreams. I want you to remind me that I am worthy and that I am enough. I want you to laugh with me at all of our problems because that is what makes us so perfect in our own worlds.
I want you to see the brokenness in my eyes and love me despite it.
I don’t want you to think that my brokenness defines me. I don’t want you to judge me for the kisses I gave to others or for the decisions I made in the past. I want you to focus on the present and what we can do to make it even better. I want you to love me with every touch, every kiss and every word that comes out of your mouth. With you, I don’t want to be afraid anymore but I want to give myself all in. So, please, when you come, tell me all that I craved for such a long time. Tell me that you love me and that you came into my life to be my second half and to complete me. Tell me that I am all that you have been looking for and that you found your soulmate, just like I did.
Let us make a nice story out of our lives and despite the fact that we are a little bit broken, let’s show the world that even like this we can love each other to the moon and back!
